I'm Waving the White Flag

Let's just say that I'm about to have to quit one of my posting boards soon. Between the website and the BlogSpot I just can't keep up with both and I feel like I'm not giving my best to either site. The website is dear to me because I have had it since Allyson was an infant and I don't want to give it up. I know that long term I will have to either convert it to its own webpage or do something because I don't want to have teenagers and their website is on babyhomepages.net. I love BlogSpot because this is where I started posting all of my feelings and my journey with grief after we lost Andrew. I still have a story that I would like to share one day but I'm still not emotionally ready for that. I'm still not doing so hot about starting my New Year resolutions but hopefully I can get my butt in gear soon. Maybe I should do a post about that...lol. After my friend, Tracy, shut her blog down I keep questioning if I should do the same. So for now I'm surrendering to my goals and whatever happens, happens. Please let me know if you have a solution to my dilemma.

Hello 2009

Again this year I thought it would be best that I post my 2009 resolutions or goals. This way I will have some accountability and if that doesn't work at least I can look back and remember what I didn't do this year. Last year I posted a general list of what I would like to do. I have to admit that I'm really impressed with myself for 2008. Overall, I accomplished many things that I wanted to do in order to really "find myself" again. First of all, we have found a home church and have been attending regularly. Brian and I have really enjoyed going and they have a wonderful children’s program. Brian and I are doing better than ever. The last 2.5 years have been really hard on us but we have made it a point to focus on each other and make our marriage a priority. Personally, I have kept off 25 pounds that I lost back in April. Professionally, I passed my certification test so that will be out of my mind for the next 6 years. So this year, along with setting my resolutions I’m also make more of a list of things that I have been procrastinating. So here goes….

1. Becoming more involved in the church. It has been really difficult this year
with work and Brian’s school schedule but I need to stop using that as an excuse. I would like to become more involved in a small group.

2. Keeping Brian and my marriage a priority. Planning at least two dates a month and trying to find little things to remind him what he means to me.

3. Focusing more on the kids. I have been consistently spending quite time with the kids at night with reading and prayers and want to make sure I continue this. I would also like to spend time with each kid individually by doing girl time and teaching skills for kindergarten with Allyson and alone time with William by reading books, going on walks, and to the park.

4. To spend more time with my Grandmother.

5. I would like to read one book a month. A real book, not a children’s book.

6. I would like to maintain the weight that I have lost and lose another 15 pounds. I’m starting another 3 month Biggest Loser challenge with my play group on the 8th!

7. To start the kids’ baby albums. Sad to say I have never printed off one baby picture since Allyson has been born. I’m determined to make digital albums this year! I welcome any ideas or tips for this project.

8. To update my blog and website weekly.

9. Finally organizing my closet. That is the one place in my house that I just get overwhelmed.

10. Start to use coupons and learn the Walgreens or CVS game. With this economy we need to save our pennies.

11. Being a better friend because I’m so blessed to have the friends that I have!