A New Blog is in the Works

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am in the process of shutting down the website that I have for the kids and will be moving everything over to blogspot in the few weeks. I want to have something a little more up and running before I post my link. I just wanted to let everyone know that this is why I haven't been posting on the website. Since my kids are growing up I thought it was time to remove the site from a baby homepage. I finally found a template that represents my family and now I'm motivated to start some new chapters in our life. For just a little sneak peak the template contains 5 flowers that represents our family. The flowers are surrounded by butterflies. Since Andrew's death I have new interest in butterflies (and dragonflies) for many reasons. For one they just remind me of him and how delicate and short his little life was. Also butterflies undergo a major transformation process as part of its normal life cycle and this cycle reminds me of the grief process and our family. In some ways I view my own life as the butterfly. With the grief process, the bereaved person must learn how to deal with the loss and significant changes. Many people hide away from the rest of the world much like being in a cocoon while trying to heal. This cocoon phase is one of transformation and often introspection and reflection. This is was part of the reason I started my own personal blog. After three long years I'm finally reaching the stage where the process ends as the person emerges from their cocoon, metamorphosed into a different person. Thus the transformation of the grieving process is much like the story of the butterfly. You have to go through many trials and tribulations in life, take the time to learn and self reflect, and then come back stronger and more beautiful than ever. Our family is symbolized by the butterfly. It is a symbol of joy, happiness, of spring, rebirth and renewal.

Happy Mother's Day

Today we had a wonderful day. Brian let me sleep in this morning and took care of the kids. After I woke up I was showered with gifts from the kids. I received VS panties and a Wexler facial kit (see my fav things blog for more info). These gifts are my staple gifts because I really couldn't think of anything I wanted other than a H20 mop (my practical gift). I really would have been fine with the mop but I didn't want to make Brian look bad when people asked what I got for Mother's Day and my response was a mop. Even when you try to justify it by saying that it was something that you really wanted it just usually doesn't go over well. Allyson also gave me her gift that she made in preschool. It was 4 pieces of heart shaped chocolate with a card that she made. The rest of the day was just a lazy Sunday we laid around and didn't do much at all. For dinner Brian and the kids took me to Texas Roadhouse where we ate like little piggies. (I hope Mother's Day calories don't count for my weigh in on Friday..lol.) Then I spent the rest of my day at work. Well that was not so hot but overall, a great day. My favorite part of my day (other than sleeping in) was my card from Allyson that Brian bought. It was a 3 page card that had little blanks that she filled out. My favorite one was name three things you love about your mom. Allyson's response was 1) face, 2) hair, and 3) toes...such a girl.