Flashback Friday

This picture was taken just two months before William was born. I can't believe how the time has flown by and how big my little girl is getting.

Happy Father's Day!

Just wanted to take this time to recognize Father's Day. I know I give Brian a hard time but he truly is an awesome Dad. We are so blessed to have him.



Hey, plus I can show off my red dress. :)

My Ice Cream Personality Test

Your Ice Cream Personality:

You are a bit of a bragger. Your personality is larger than life - and you really enjoy showing off. You are incredibly cautious. You rather miss out on something than make a mistake. No one would ever call you wild... but they would call you responsible. You are a fairly open minded person with a wide range of tastes. You are quite accepting of unusual ideas and people. You tend to have a one track mind. You prefer not to multitask. You are fun loving and sweet. You tend to enjoy joking around and teasing people.

The Ice Cream Personality Test

I'm feeling much better today

I'm finally starting to feel better and recoverying from the little illness that I had. Here are the answers to some of the questions that I got about being ill....

1) No, I'm not pregnant.

2) I did not eat any tomatoes.

3) There are no ticks on my body and I don't have Lyme disease.

You cannot lie when your three year old is around

Yesterday evening I took the kids outside after dinner so that they could enjoy the warm weather and to hopefully wear them out a little before bedtime. I decided that I was going to let them play in the water but just did not have the energy to pull out the water toys. Being the classy mom that I am I decided to just turn on the irrigation system and let them play. While we were sitting outside I noticed that a salesman was walking down the street. A feeling of panic just came over me. Usually when they come to my door they ask if my parents are home which I reply no and slowly close the door. I had a feeling it wasn't going to be as easy this time considering I was stuck outside with two little wet kids. As I watching him move up the road I was trying to come up with a story because I just didn't want to have to get rude with this guy and just didn't want to be bothered. As he approached me I just looked at him and said "Oh, I don't live here. I just watch the kids." He gave me his card to give to the owners of the house and asked that I tell them to give him a call. As he started to walk away Allyson ran up to me and said "Mommy, what did that boy want?" I just looked at him and said "I keep them all the time. It's really sad that she calls me that."

Just One Step Back in the Journey

Everyone knows that April was an extremely hard month for me. As soon as William's birthday was over all I could think about was Andrew and relive all of those days in 2006 up until my first Mother's Day without him. Since then I have been doing well. I haven't had any of my little breakdowns where I go hide in my closet and have a good cry. In fact, I haven't even cried at all. I think the month was just so draining that I just had nothing else to feel for the moment. On Saturday I had to take William to the clinic because he hasn't been feeling well since his surgery. As we walked down the hall in the clinic we passed the office door to the pediatrician that was on call and treated Andrew after my delivery. Remember he was the one that misdiagnosed him and said that his symptoms were because he was premature. He was the one that the next morning when Andrew was being resuscitated he was telling me how he was expecting his first grandchild (a boy) in two weeks. Well, on Saturday as we walked past his door there were pictures all over his door of him playing outside with his grandson. It's amazing how one little thing can make you regress back in your stages of grief. I don't like using the typical stages of grief because I don't like the last step of acceptance. I'm mean weather you have lost a loved one or you or a family member is dying from a terminal disease do you truly deep in your heart every accept that? Maybe some people do. For me and as of now I'm not even close to acceptanting this. I like the models where the last step is reorganization or resolution. For me that just seems more realistic. Just like anything in life you always have some set backs. Here is my set back. I'm back to anger. I'm angry that this man gets to make a mistake and gets to go on with his life. I truly hope that one day I will be able to forgive him. I truly do hope that. It's just not going to be today.

Marriage Today Conference

I have been watching Marriage Today on Daystar for about the last two years. Last year Brian and I attended the Marriage on the Rock conference. It was great to have a night without the kids, spend some time reconnecting with each other, and learning some valuable information to help strengthen our marriage. The conference is laid back and talks about the everyday couple. I would highly recommend going or at least looking at what they have to offer. Here is a link to this years conference.